75 days past new year

It is 75th day of the year, and me, irresponsible as usual, telling a 'hello' so late, wishing you all ' happy new year' at inappropriate and irrelevant time, if it is for the next year it is too early and if it is for this year it is useless; but this cant stop me from wishing you all ' happy new year' and first 'good morning' of the year.

what made me so late? what was occupying my mind and time? what was i going through? are these all worth thinking? dont know... but am enjoying them as usual, useless, reckless, purposeless.... haan! purpose... the word to start the year with, which i had been torturing for years now...

how do u define purpose?.... it is just a word, but people addd content to it as they like, like anyother words in the dictionary, but what is that i had in my mind about purpose?purposelessness. life never has a purpose as a whole when you see at high level, at low level? ofcourse, no purpose there also, but, we, the people, cannot live wihtout purpose, we try to find it, fight to understand it, struggle to achieve and die without really knowing if we had done it or really understood it...

me, here, sitting without any purpose by heart, but defined by the purpose of the people around me, knowing what to do exactly, but not doing it or not knowing where to start? all these days i dint know what I want , when i knew it am not able to stand to fight it, coward. everything starts with a dot, i know it, but afraid to implement it, what might happen? what will be the action and reaction? what will be the cause and effect? what will be the do's and dont's? i know but i dont know. what i know is not what i should be knowing, what i dont know is what i must know to get there where i want to be, how is the that? bingo..... million dollar question. if everyone knows the answer for this then everyone are serene, but people are at 660+ crore stages towards this, everyone are at their own stage of search. when are all going to meet? dont know, may be i know, never! but that cant be true, cause of my hope.

Telling a late hello and confusing people, what a way is this? but how else can this be? now to all a great new year, 75 days old year, but still new every day, so Have a great morning.