life cycle-the routine

I had thought i must write many things, but either my laziness or mood or improper time management or usual situations has made not it that often.
Today some how the boredom has beat all the above and finally my hands on the keyboard for this purpose. By this time, there will be a person who would be thinking, why should he write all this blah blah before every post or why is his post always like this, sorry, i cant help it... :P
When you have nothing or only one or two things in your mind then you can write easily, but when it is choked with ideas, incidents, situations, to be told things it is pure chaos...where to start where to end, it is like when you are with a gal for the first time before an intercourse, the dilemmas, the suggestions, the priorities, the waits, the thoughts...hmmm... its great to see myself through that chaos....
Past two days was damp, drizzling non-stop and at few instances turned into rain...
Inception movie was good, might be someone is already implementing it....who knows, anything is possible in this crazy place...
Friday it rained very heavily, i was at office and dint get wet when i wanted to, i blame myself for this act of restraining myself...literally everyone was standing out to watch the rain, many would have wanted to dance in the rain like me, but no, after ten minutes break, they have to be in their desk to serve their client...
Last whole week was slow and moreover lonelier as am sitting alone now, others have left...
The week before that was home going week... this time i felt that too boring even though it was fun i liked it, i work here 4 3-4 months, then go on leave for a week, have fun, enjoy, meet all, of course with all clauses, and all are very much interested in my salary and how much i save in it, trips to the place i love and then back here, again 3-4 months....
Now everything is become a routine, i can tell what will happen same day next month to me, it is pure routine, might be few diff might be there but the skeleton schedule will be same...this time i want to come out of this routine, with uncertainties all over and courage to face it all...
The sooner it is the better it is to me...

The Beautiful mind

bare foot, on the tiles, in the mid night, it is chill, you feel it, but is it true? are you sure about it being true, if not for the brain, transforming the signals of the nerves from you foot.
you see an apple, red, fresh, tempting you to eat. are you sure that i am seeing the same apple that you see?
by mistake, knife slits a part of your hand, you feel a pain, is that true? is that called the real pain?
you live in a world, you have father, mother, sister, brother, relations, friends, education, enemy, teachers, job, managers, love, hate, lust,future plans, learning from past,occupied brain, is that all true? do you know if others in your world really exist except for you see, you speak, your brain tells?
is everything around you is true? will you tell me with 100% clarity and proof?
do you know that if you are reading this by your own need or you are made to read it?
do you? do you know?
how may people question your existence? who all wants to find the path to......
do you all think whatever you are doing right now is worth it? me writing this blog, after some times, you reading it, then ignoring it asusual and going by your life? is it all worth it? what is the need for me that i sit and write this blog at this time of hour when i real wanna sleep? what?
the answers, for these questions, can they be found without your beautiful mind inside your head???

theory of relativitY....

Do anyone know it?

I know what will be your response, ofcourse, even a 6^th class kid would know it. but that theory is of science, the behavioral nature of some matter with regards to other matter.

But I am talking here about life’s science’s theory of relativity. Relations, relatives, relativity, relating about these…

I was seeing the brazil-netherlands quarter final fifa 2010 match, an hour back. Brazil lost the match. The camera was moving from one fan to the other showing how bad the Brazilian fans were feeling, when the camera took a hold of few secs on a disappointed fan, he was completely in disappointment and in the verge of cry, then, he sees the screen in the ground, after knowing he was live on television, he turned to the camera and started to smile and wave his hand, the camera moved away… so here, in this scene, the relativity between fan and brazil’s loss, fan and camera, camera and sad fan, camera and same sad fan happily waving hands with a big smile….

Similarly, many days I have seen me entering my office with full big smile and happiness in heart, but everything sinks into nowhere the moment I sit in my seat and switch on the computer….relativity

The way you behave in a marriage, birthday party, funeral, court, police station, railway station, India, America, Singapore, china, home, hostel, office, FOREST….relativity

The way you behave with your friend, enemy, father, mother, relative you like, relative you hate, present girl/boy friend, ex-girl/boy friend, a new gal/boy you meet on train/bus/off/pub/social sites, wife, keeps, PROSTITUTES/GIGOLOS, GAYS/LESBIANS…. Relativity

The way you see a rose bud flowering

The way my relations behaved to me when I was a kid, when I was in school, when I was in coll, when I came to work, when I was about to be chucked off, when I was still in work… similarly the way I behaved with them in all these situations….again relativity

Relativity…relativity… relativity… everywhere and  in everything we do, even the relating with which I write and with the relating you read it….there is a relation relating you and me, it can be named into positive or negative, I care a damn in wasting time over that segregation, rather, I will think about that relating factor I have with all…

I am losing my relativity to this blog, I wanted to relate the thoughts of my mind about the relativities I see around and even knowing the factors effecting it, at times those things cant be changed as there are others related to it and still, and still, and still, and still, and still, I cant relate it, relate it with them and do something useful….

I don’t know if you were able to get the relating factors am trying to tell here, but this is what am trying to tell, everything is relative to everything, everyone act relatively to others, the relativity can be named anyway you want friend, enemy, lover, addict, killer, psycho, sadist, good heart, stone heart… anything…but it has a relation… it is special, always, as it cant be similar to the other relations you can/or have, it cant be the copy of any relative factors, though, few similarities might be there to give those relating factors a relation… we are in a web, interconnected, our surrounding our feelings our nature our emotions our behavior our everything is relative, just it is your eye/brain/feel/understanding/ear/nose/sense/situation these decides the relativity between others, make it better so you can relate yourself better and relate better… this word I tell here, ‘relate better’,  has its own relativity between the word ‘relate’ and ‘better’, how you pursue it, it means…

Finally I guess I had made my point….:-d