timer running.... just 5 mins.... sure nothing more than tat. this just to quench my face in dis wrld n run away to sleep.....
i ate some hard food before 12 hrs and nw am feeling dizzy, so only feeling to sleep...or would continue this run of night...this night not sleeping is becoming habit, they define it by a term called , insomnia. watever it is... i dnt kno if am victim, but am victim of something else, so ly thim insonianess....
i dont feel any strain but, guess i have it in my veins, to not to sleep in nyts n nw got a wonderful companion into nyts....but just hate to sit infron of dis monitor n tubelight over my head, it would have been gud if am out in the dark with that person....but wishes r not fullfilled alltime, but wat is wrong in wishing, v r happy n best at it.... see all the human wishes around you alive(actually dead)....many persons wishes around us making our lifes into just wishes that cud hav been.....
time up....
have gud wishing.....
Friday, May 14, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
சிதறியவை
ஒரு சில தருணங்களில் நம் தாய் மொழியை விட சிறப்பாய் சொல்ல வேறு மொழி இராது. வெகு சில தருணங்களில் மட்டுமே மௌனம் நமக்கு மிக சிறந்த மொழி ஆகிறது, அத்தருணங்கள் அற்புதமானவை, அவற்றை அனுபவிக்க முடியுமே தவிர சொல்ல இயலாது...தவம் போல்.
எதிர்பார்த்து எதிர்பார்த்து நாம் எதாச்சும் செஞ்சால், அதை செய்யும் போது அனுபவிக்கும் தருணம் நமக்கு கிடைக்காது. முடிவில் மட்டுமே கவனம் இருந்து கொண்டே இருக்கும், மனதிற்கு உவந்த முடிவை நோக்கியே அது செல்லும், அது முடிவையும், சேயும் போது கிடைக்கும் அனுபவத்தையும் கெடுத்து விடும்.
மனிதர்களால் எதிர் பாராமல் எதையும் செய்ய இயலாது,இது உண்மை, மாற்ற முடியாதது. சரி எதிர் பார்க்கட்டும், அனால் முடிவு அவர்களுக்கு உகந்ததாக இல்லாவிடில், மனம் தளராமல் இருக்க பழக வேண்டும், அனால் நான் அதை எதிர் பார்ப்பதும் ஒரு முட்டாள்தனமே, என்ன செய்ய எதிர்பார்பிலாமல் இருபது கடினம் ஆகிவிடுகிறதே.....
பார்ப்போம்...
அப்படியே ஒரு யோசனை, இந்த உண்மையெல்லாம் பொய் என்று எல்லோரும் கண்டுபிடிக்கும் காலத்தில் என்னவாகும் என்று....
எப்படியோ போக....
கவலை,வருத்தம்,வேதனை,சோகம் இதெற்கெல்லாம் வேறுபாடு என்ன....
அர்த்தம் இல்லது பிதற்றுவது, அதை படிச்சு அர்த்தம் பண்ண முயல்வது, அர்த்தம் விலாங்கவிடில் பிதர்றியவனை கேட்பது, திட்டுவது; மறுபடியும் பிதற்றுவது.... எத்தன நோக்கம் என்னவாக இருக்கும் என்று எண்ணம்....
நாம் கூறுவது நமக்கு புரிந்திருப்பது, புரியாமல் போவது, புரிய முயற்சிப்பது, புரிய வேண்டியதின் கட்டாயம் என்னவோ...
ஆடுவது, அதற்கு ஏற்ற பாட்டு... ஆடலுடன் பாடலை கேட்பதில் தானே சுகம் சுகம்....
இப்படியாக......
எதிர்பார்த்து எதிர்பார்த்து நாம் எதாச்சும் செஞ்சால், அதை செய்யும் போது அனுபவிக்கும் தருணம் நமக்கு கிடைக்காது. முடிவில் மட்டுமே கவனம் இருந்து கொண்டே இருக்கும், மனதிற்கு உவந்த முடிவை நோக்கியே அது செல்லும், அது முடிவையும், சேயும் போது கிடைக்கும் அனுபவத்தையும் கெடுத்து விடும்.
மனிதர்களால் எதிர் பாராமல் எதையும் செய்ய இயலாது,இது உண்மை, மாற்ற முடியாதது. சரி எதிர் பார்க்கட்டும், அனால் முடிவு அவர்களுக்கு உகந்ததாக இல்லாவிடில், மனம் தளராமல் இருக்க பழக வேண்டும், அனால் நான் அதை எதிர் பார்ப்பதும் ஒரு முட்டாள்தனமே, என்ன செய்ய எதிர்பார்பிலாமல் இருபது கடினம் ஆகிவிடுகிறதே.....
பார்ப்போம்...
அப்படியே ஒரு யோசனை, இந்த உண்மையெல்லாம் பொய் என்று எல்லோரும் கண்டுபிடிக்கும் காலத்தில் என்னவாகும் என்று....
எப்படியோ போக....
கவலை,வருத்தம்,வேதனை,சோகம் இதெற்கெல்லாம் வேறுபாடு என்ன....
அர்த்தம் இல்லது பிதற்றுவது, அதை படிச்சு அர்த்தம் பண்ண முயல்வது, அர்த்தம் விலாங்கவிடில் பிதர்றியவனை கேட்பது, திட்டுவது; மறுபடியும் பிதற்றுவது.... எத்தன நோக்கம் என்னவாக இருக்கும் என்று எண்ணம்....
நாம் கூறுவது நமக்கு புரிந்திருப்பது, புரியாமல் போவது, புரிய முயற்சிப்பது, புரிய வேண்டியதின் கட்டாயம் என்னவோ...
ஆடுவது, அதற்கு ஏற்ற பாட்டு... ஆடலுடன் பாடலை கேட்பதில் தானே சுகம் சுகம்....
இப்படியாக......
Monday, May 10, 2010
Train to Pune and Bus to hyderabad - 2
CONTINUING......
9:15, at the entrance of the station, the lady over the speaker was telling, train was late by 2hours and 15 mins.... wonderful start, so i have more time to think....:D
went back home, started watching scent of a women, al pacino, great actor...
11:00pm movie over, dint know what to do, just took a bath, dressed up again... ;) went to the station
11:20pm got the ticket, enquired about the train, it was to come by 12:00, good...
sat in the station, started with motorcycle diaries, it really gives you energy for such journeys.
11:30pm there was a dog fighting with a plastic bag on the tracks for the leftovers in it, two more dogs on the platform, ofcorse on dog over the other, so 2 gay male dogs in the summer night at a railway station. the dog from tracks came up for a share i guess, the men came and gave one good bark for it to run and it went back to its duty until a RPF human men, came to give both a wack... dogs are not allowed in platform he was telling to someone...
11:50 pm, two gentlemen came to disturb my unconcentrated reading. i closed the book to overhear them, better to concentrate on that, some guys with new business, defnitely should be enggineers. train was to come by anytime, the guy just had asked the stationmaster
12:00 am still over hearing them
12:05 still same status
12:10 still same status
12:15 still same status with a news, once the goods train passes next was my train, great news
12:20 goods train comes
12:25 still it is passing by...
12:27 my train comes, now i have an unreserved ticket and went in search of TTR, he was in the second compartment i got in, i asked him for berth, he said there is none. fine. great. i got into the reservved compartment, checked for a free seat and went sat...
train started, and i was still waiting for the TTR to come. after a 20 mins period, he came, checcked everyone's ticket and asked mine, after a little conversation and paying the difference with a small fine, i got a berth...;) went slept, happily, thinking by 12:00 pm i would land in my destination....
in the morning i woke up, many times, but came out of the berth by 10:00 am to find out that the train was standing somewhere after sholapur, in a small station, dont know the name. after a half an hour's wait, the station master announced, that the train will leave only by 12:00pm.... wonderful.... got a cuccumber and ate. no money in hand and no atm, TTR took away everything, i had to wait for an atm, got a water bottle, saved rest for next water bottle.i dint know how to eat that 'vada-pav' so dry, so decided against it and went back to my berth to save energy and escape hunger. lying down, no sleep, breaking signal in the mobile, informed about dis to the person whom i must actually surprising by ringing the bell at the person's home....:( after few msgs, and calls, found that the person was busy the whole day with plans... great... i was thinking about the coin that i tossed, took it out of my wallet and saw it and smiled at it...;) fine, persuaded for a small meet, and back home, i thought...
mant, finally the train started by 12:30 pm... happyliy slept...
1:20 pm, again stopped at a unknown, rock hill filled station....
1:50 pm, train resumes its journey...;)
2:30 pm train stops at Bighvan station, great.... what can i do, again call tell the delays... but had one relief, the sun was hidden by dark clouds, and droplets where coming down, falling on me...:) thats the way you get convinced, still the coin was tossing in my head....;)
3:25 pm, train resumes journey... happily went to berth to continue my sleep, informing a co-passenger to wake me up at pune.
4:15 some big station... dund i guess.... lots of crowd, and many people selling many north indian food stuffs, me just watching everything....
4:30 train resumes journey and i resume my sleep....
5:15 pm, kedgaon station. there was a train stuck in front of my train in the same track.... perfect.... and the railway people where thinking and acting....;) went down, got a new bottle of water, no ATM's here also...so just see others eat and you drink water... call again, inform the delay... repeating process, but still drizzles were coming down on to me from top... kept me cooling....
6:30 train departs.... ooofff.... kept updating through messages....
finally the much awaited PUNE i landed at 7:15pm or so i guess.... went straight to the atm, made me a rich bugger...;) by the way, what crowd, how many people, oh my.... it was great,but i was in no mood for it, my return train was by 9:55 pm. i should go for this place for dinner with that person and back to station get ticket and board the train.... so run...
drizzles pouring....:)
took an auto.... went to the place after some changes in the venue... finally... there are many signals in pune, and i really dint have patience or time for them, ut the autowalla had it... so i was forced to make it....reached at 8.
ate a mahrastrian thaali meal, in a over costly restaraunt... was thinking about the people an places i had crossed the whole day while eating and talking, i was hungry like a dinasour, but was not able to eat more than 5 rotis, 3 puris and little food and some sweet... i could not believe myself, people who knows me will also not believe it, but that was the fact...after plesantries, talks, billing, and some fun... now time to get back...
came out, still drizzling, gave the parcel.... courier walla wouldnt have been so kind enough.... now get back to station... time was 9:00pm already.
after a 10 mins of getting wet in the drizzle, got an auto, went to station, the return journey was longer than the onward journey....rain had played its part, stagnant waters wetting my dragging jean... following the tunnel to station, crowd all over the place...
People....people...people.... and more people coming in and out....
it should have been an happy ending... but....
TO BE CONTINUED.......
(this episode is sure to increase the hype.... ;))
9:15, at the entrance of the station, the lady over the speaker was telling, train was late by 2hours and 15 mins.... wonderful start, so i have more time to think....:D
went back home, started watching scent of a women, al pacino, great actor...
11:00pm movie over, dint know what to do, just took a bath, dressed up again... ;) went to the station
11:20pm got the ticket, enquired about the train, it was to come by 12:00, good...
sat in the station, started with motorcycle diaries, it really gives you energy for such journeys.
11:30pm there was a dog fighting with a plastic bag on the tracks for the leftovers in it, two more dogs on the platform, ofcorse on dog over the other, so 2 gay male dogs in the summer night at a railway station. the dog from tracks came up for a share i guess, the men came and gave one good bark for it to run and it went back to its duty until a RPF human men, came to give both a wack... dogs are not allowed in platform he was telling to someone...
11:50 pm, two gentlemen came to disturb my unconcentrated reading. i closed the book to overhear them, better to concentrate on that, some guys with new business, defnitely should be enggineers. train was to come by anytime, the guy just had asked the stationmaster
12:00 am still over hearing them
12:05 still same status
12:10 still same status
12:15 still same status with a news, once the goods train passes next was my train, great news
12:20 goods train comes
12:25 still it is passing by...
12:27 my train comes, now i have an unreserved ticket and went in search of TTR, he was in the second compartment i got in, i asked him for berth, he said there is none. fine. great. i got into the reservved compartment, checked for a free seat and went sat...
train started, and i was still waiting for the TTR to come. after a 20 mins period, he came, checcked everyone's ticket and asked mine, after a little conversation and paying the difference with a small fine, i got a berth...;) went slept, happily, thinking by 12:00 pm i would land in my destination....
in the morning i woke up, many times, but came out of the berth by 10:00 am to find out that the train was standing somewhere after sholapur, in a small station, dont know the name. after a half an hour's wait, the station master announced, that the train will leave only by 12:00pm.... wonderful.... got a cuccumber and ate. no money in hand and no atm, TTR took away everything, i had to wait for an atm, got a water bottle, saved rest for next water bottle.i dint know how to eat that 'vada-pav' so dry, so decided against it and went back to my berth to save energy and escape hunger. lying down, no sleep, breaking signal in the mobile, informed about dis to the person whom i must actually surprising by ringing the bell at the person's home....:( after few msgs, and calls, found that the person was busy the whole day with plans... great... i was thinking about the coin that i tossed, took it out of my wallet and saw it and smiled at it...;) fine, persuaded for a small meet, and back home, i thought...
mant, finally the train started by 12:30 pm... happyliy slept...
1:20 pm, again stopped at a unknown, rock hill filled station....
1:50 pm, train resumes its journey...;)
2:30 pm train stops at Bighvan station, great.... what can i do, again call tell the delays... but had one relief, the sun was hidden by dark clouds, and droplets where coming down, falling on me...:) thats the way you get convinced, still the coin was tossing in my head....;)
3:25 pm, train resumes journey... happily went to berth to continue my sleep, informing a co-passenger to wake me up at pune.
4:15 some big station... dund i guess.... lots of crowd, and many people selling many north indian food stuffs, me just watching everything....
4:30 train resumes journey and i resume my sleep....
5:15 pm, kedgaon station. there was a train stuck in front of my train in the same track.... perfect.... and the railway people where thinking and acting....;) went down, got a new bottle of water, no ATM's here also...so just see others eat and you drink water... call again, inform the delay... repeating process, but still drizzles were coming down on to me from top... kept me cooling....
6:30 train departs.... ooofff.... kept updating through messages....
finally the much awaited PUNE i landed at 7:15pm or so i guess.... went straight to the atm, made me a rich bugger...;) by the way, what crowd, how many people, oh my.... it was great,but i was in no mood for it, my return train was by 9:55 pm. i should go for this place for dinner with that person and back to station get ticket and board the train.... so run...
drizzles pouring....:)
took an auto.... went to the place after some changes in the venue... finally... there are many signals in pune, and i really dint have patience or time for them, ut the autowalla had it... so i was forced to make it....reached at 8.
ate a mahrastrian thaali meal, in a over costly restaraunt... was thinking about the people an places i had crossed the whole day while eating and talking, i was hungry like a dinasour, but was not able to eat more than 5 rotis, 3 puris and little food and some sweet... i could not believe myself, people who knows me will also not believe it, but that was the fact...after plesantries, talks, billing, and some fun... now time to get back...
came out, still drizzling, gave the parcel.... courier walla wouldnt have been so kind enough.... now get back to station... time was 9:00pm already.
after a 10 mins of getting wet in the drizzle, got an auto, went to station, the return journey was longer than the onward journey....rain had played its part, stagnant waters wetting my dragging jean... following the tunnel to station, crowd all over the place...
People....people...people.... and more people coming in and out....
it should have been an happy ending... but....
TO BE CONTINUED.......
(this episode is sure to increase the hype.... ;))
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Train to Pune and Bus to hyderabad - 1
first as a matter of caution and disclaimer, if you are person telling jai maharashtra!, Baltaki's fans and well wisher of his ideas, person with light heart and strong affection to maharashtara or north india, or person with no brains and more masalas, person who cannot take other persons negative view, person with strict ideologies and in simple people with no parallel thinking - stop here and please do some of your so called useful stuffs, this is gonna be my thoughts that i had in a travel to one of my cities in my country....
others, lets continue with my blog.....
i have taken many weird steps for travelling all over my life, many 'do it now' plans; uncertainty masala drama risks stupid encounters failures pleasant surprises would be the motto of them... i would surely know that i would regret for it when am in the process of those steps, but post the step is done, i would feel that it is the best thing i have done.....
likewise this saturday i just got an idea of visiting a city 550 kms from the city am living now, i.e. travel Hyderabad to Pune and come back in 2 nights and a day..... as there is station very near to my house no problem for trains.... i went saw the train timings, i had 6 hrs and 13 mins @ 3:00pm.... I know thats plenty of time.... but the thing i dint know was whether to go or not, should i really do it or not, will i be really able to survive the 48+ hours to a travel to a northern states of india as i have had bitter experience that way, that too in this summer, with no confirmed tickets, no heart to spend more money as i know i had other commitments in the rest of the month, no one to accompany and the reason i was going there anyone would simply call 'stupid' but, i, on the contrary just thought how it would be? enough, that gave me all the strength to face anything that might come up, but still, dillemma.... in the 6 hrs i worked with wikimapia for my destination, maps were ready even before the plan was confirmed...;);) then small shopping, the reason, for going; then sat at the steps of a bank and was seeing the sunset, thinking many other things, but not the plan or if am interested in going or not, or anything, just thinking something, tried to call 2 of my friends, in vain....
sunset was good, pleasant no big clouds but good, yellow light....always wonderful, took some photos... with still plans not confirmed, i just went back home, dint eat any proper food for last dinner, breakfast or lunch, so planned to cook a really GOOD dinner, full meals, so charged up, vennilla kabadi kulu movie playing in the back ground, cooked rice, dhaal, rasam, fryums, and curd(from shop)....:) pleasant dinner over @ 8 all alone, with 5 star as my desert.... hmmm, wat more can i ask? except for if am going or not, have i made up my mind or not....
9:13 was scheduled train timing, might be 8:30 i can go and get ticket get in.... it would work fine....
8:45 pm, i still dint have any clue what i was to do or was thinking about, finally gave up to my temtation, took a one rupee coin, tossed it, it rolled in the air, fell on my left hand and my right hand covered it immediately, now i had a small problem in this, whenever i do choice by tossing, or inky-pinky-ponky styles, i have to follow it whatever it is, i should not breach it, but every time i breach it....;) :) and get the worst, but still dint learn any lesson....;) anyways back to the toss, i dint call for a head or tail while it was up in the air, now it is my hand and i dint have a clue of what to call for... as i know already teh choice is there in my hand and i have to make a call for sure or return the coin to the wallet, which i am not going to do.... after little more battles, i called out for a HEAD, took my right hand out with my eyes closed, then slight opening of left eye, ooops, u gussed it rightly.... it was a tail.....
now i went sat in front of the idiot box, ad, no movie, my heart was not ready to accept the toss... shit, i became restless, went out stood out, no breeze, but it was cool, still fuck it, am restless....
9:00 clock still watching the movie, still deciding wheter to go or not, finally changed dress, took the parcel went to the station, knowing once again am breaching my toss, my choice ;), if the train was late, if i am able to get a ticket and get in then fine-i decided and went...
TO BE CONTINUED.......
Note: the reason that am not writing it in a single blog is that, i got few comments as am writing it too long, so am splitting..... it is no reason to keep you inquistive.... :-P, so dont be mislead.... ;-)
others, lets continue with my blog.....
i have taken many weird steps for travelling all over my life, many 'do it now' plans; uncertainty masala drama risks stupid encounters failures pleasant surprises would be the motto of them... i would surely know that i would regret for it when am in the process of those steps, but post the step is done, i would feel that it is the best thing i have done.....
likewise this saturday i just got an idea of visiting a city 550 kms from the city am living now, i.e. travel Hyderabad to Pune and come back in 2 nights and a day..... as there is station very near to my house no problem for trains.... i went saw the train timings, i had 6 hrs and 13 mins @ 3:00pm.... I know thats plenty of time.... but the thing i dint know was whether to go or not, should i really do it or not, will i be really able to survive the 48+ hours to a travel to a northern states of india as i have had bitter experience that way, that too in this summer, with no confirmed tickets, no heart to spend more money as i know i had other commitments in the rest of the month, no one to accompany and the reason i was going there anyone would simply call 'stupid' but, i, on the contrary just thought how it would be? enough, that gave me all the strength to face anything that might come up, but still, dillemma.... in the 6 hrs i worked with wikimapia for my destination, maps were ready even before the plan was confirmed...;);) then small shopping, the reason, for going; then sat at the steps of a bank and was seeing the sunset, thinking many other things, but not the plan or if am interested in going or not, or anything, just thinking something, tried to call 2 of my friends, in vain....
sunset was good, pleasant no big clouds but good, yellow light....always wonderful, took some photos... with still plans not confirmed, i just went back home, dint eat any proper food for last dinner, breakfast or lunch, so planned to cook a really GOOD dinner, full meals, so charged up, vennilla kabadi kulu movie playing in the back ground, cooked rice, dhaal, rasam, fryums, and curd(from shop)....:) pleasant dinner over @ 8 all alone, with 5 star as my desert.... hmmm, wat more can i ask? except for if am going or not, have i made up my mind or not....
9:13 was scheduled train timing, might be 8:30 i can go and get ticket get in.... it would work fine....
8:45 pm, i still dint have any clue what i was to do or was thinking about, finally gave up to my temtation, took a one rupee coin, tossed it, it rolled in the air, fell on my left hand and my right hand covered it immediately, now i had a small problem in this, whenever i do choice by tossing, or inky-pinky-ponky styles, i have to follow it whatever it is, i should not breach it, but every time i breach it....;) :) and get the worst, but still dint learn any lesson....;) anyways back to the toss, i dint call for a head or tail while it was up in the air, now it is my hand and i dint have a clue of what to call for... as i know already teh choice is there in my hand and i have to make a call for sure or return the coin to the wallet, which i am not going to do.... after little more battles, i called out for a HEAD, took my right hand out with my eyes closed, then slight opening of left eye, ooops, u gussed it rightly.... it was a tail.....
now i went sat in front of the idiot box, ad, no movie, my heart was not ready to accept the toss... shit, i became restless, went out stood out, no breeze, but it was cool, still fuck it, am restless....
9:00 clock still watching the movie, still deciding wheter to go or not, finally changed dress, took the parcel went to the station, knowing once again am breaching my toss, my choice ;), if the train was late, if i am able to get a ticket and get in then fine-i decided and went...
TO BE CONTINUED.......
Note: the reason that am not writing it in a single blog is that, i got few comments as am writing it too long, so am splitting..... it is no reason to keep you inquistive.... :-P, so dont be mislead.... ;-)
Saturday, May 8, 2010
ur shoulders,d most needed
it can be less understood when a peson tells her/his worries, thoughts, things that stress out them, negative stuffs they face, pessimism around, people pulling them down into old shacks....
and people who are not facing it, usually tries to console them, make them feel good... my foot...
just let them alone face, let them face it...you cant realize how irritating it would be, until you are in their shoes, when people just telling things would be better; this 'would be' everyone hopes, but what about the situation at hand, how do u expect a person not to feel bad when she/he fails in a final exam, demise of some loved ones, when things and people turn against them, when everything goes wrong...? wont it pain a bit also? shouldnt they be low? let them be.... they will come out of it by their own way, so they have the guts and energy to face situations in future.
like the 'would be' good in future, there 'would be' bad also, so let them find their own way out of their low's... if they are telling u something, just give your shoulders to rest their head and hear them as they tell, enough.... they will be happy... they will get their most needed strength, that there is a shoulder to rest when needed, that will make them fine,words spoil the music of it....
as always, this is my thoughts, not stuffing it on anyone, just making a note so i dont do it, coz even i hav done this at times.... so simple self realization process...;)
be good like yourself....:)
and people who are not facing it, usually tries to console them, make them feel good... my foot...
just let them alone face, let them face it...you cant realize how irritating it would be, until you are in their shoes, when people just telling things would be better; this 'would be' everyone hopes, but what about the situation at hand, how do u expect a person not to feel bad when she/he fails in a final exam, demise of some loved ones, when things and people turn against them, when everything goes wrong...? wont it pain a bit also? shouldnt they be low? let them be.... they will come out of it by their own way, so they have the guts and energy to face situations in future.
like the 'would be' good in future, there 'would be' bad also, so let them find their own way out of their low's... if they are telling u something, just give your shoulders to rest their head and hear them as they tell, enough.... they will be happy... they will get their most needed strength, that there is a shoulder to rest when needed, that will make them fine,words spoil the music of it....
as always, this is my thoughts, not stuffing it on anyone, just making a note so i dont do it, coz even i hav done this at times.... so simple self realization process...;)
be good like yourself....:)
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Muthu woke up and wrote it.....
thursday
1:25 am
Just completed 'WAKE UP SID', a hindhi* movie....:-) now dont try to test my hindhi* knowledge:-p, i do understand movies, i have that knowledge of Hindhi*.;-)
I wish there is more graphics in here too like yahoo chat, Googles sucks this part, might be someone who reads this can suggest that to someone in google.....
anyway that is not the reason am sitting here at this time to write something, so let me get into the matter,
but actually, i really dont have anything very specific thoughts to put into words asusual,;-)..... but just thought, i have to capture this mind set.... fresh, like it just rained, just got drenched in rain after tearing sun, beautiful sunset in the back drop of a ocean where u r sitting all alone, just u and the ocean..... :)
any emotion is not permanent, not a single one, it passes away, i know even this will pass away, but i wish i have this mind set all time, but who knows i might get bored of it too at times,:-p, so varitey is always good[now u understand why i always tell NO to marriage,;-)]....
Fun is good, but how worth it is, how well we deserve it is there, most imp thing is how well we handle it and share it with others, i do remember a moment in a life that i acted like a stupid, enjoyed the moment, without even considering others around me, the moment was, 2nd day of my interview to a job which i was not even interested, i got selected, knew it after 6 hrs of waiting after the interview, i jumped, danced, shouted, laughed, forgot my hunger, frustration of waiting, calls flew from my mobile to all,full happy, face was not stopping the curve,updations in orkut[that time facebook was far away from me].... but when i got grounded, back to earth, i knew how stupid i was, dint even think about people who really deserved it,i, a chemical engineer got a Software engineering job and a computer engineer failing in the same interview, what nonsense, and am celebrating infront of him/her,i would regret for that moment anytime in my life, i really dint mean to hurt anybody out there, but i had created a scene which would have hurt anyone, wish i have this mindset when i get any other success, ok i will not call this a success, let me tell it a breakthrough.... i will take this chance to tell them all a sorry, and will surely be angry for making me a software engg....;-):-p
anyway, that thought just crossed in and got its space, but, i wanted this about wake up sid, simple movie, no complex stuffs, actually similar stuff, that we have known for years, but people it is worth the watch, it is fun, expected twists, known story line, but still fresh. I liked it. would recommend it, provided you all have a lite heart like mine....;-)you know it must be good heart actually....:-p and more important thing, Konkana was the heroien,,,,what women she is.... I llike her from the momen t i first saw her in 'mr. n mrs. iyer'....
everyone always have expectations about their partner,Guzarish, i call her, actually recently changed name, thats looooooooooooooong story, no place for it here, might be sometime else, now, even i have expectations, about my dream guzarish, everyone wants the perfect,beautiful, smart, brave, brilliant, good, fun to be with, what not, everything packed in one....me too, so no blame game is this,.... so just some thinking stuff....;-) come on be serious,:-))....lol... but this is true, many gals i have seen, some i have tried out, only talking, dont get brilliant imaginations..... but nothing lasted morethan 24 hrs, which exceeds that surely end up in wonderful fight....;-) so here i want to just record one thing, the mind set of me after this movie, dont expect your love, dont make it, it is no dish that you can cook, let it happen, let it stay, let it go, let other love come, let it stay, let it go..... end of the day you will be person knowing to love everything around you, you cannot hate anyone, even if they can snatch of your thirupathi laddu, or snatch your system while reading blogs like mine, you will be smiling, see like this....':-)' thats good.....
I love you all.... and ofcourse you people love me too..... this love is enough, till you know the itches of your age, but for some wonderful passion in bed you do need next step of love, the compassion to be felt in a single hug; it is really simple to have a coitus even by a mastrubation, but the serenity of it, pleasure, warmth, [and more big words i dont know :-( ;-)], you can feel it only when you have love, when you are there and your partner is there, that is were you go to timelessness, not just fucking around, if you just keep fucking around, it is just like you come to a school, college, office, grave yard, a work, just a work.... so be clear with whom you take to bed and how.....
"is there anything else in this world? you know what keeps me going around all these years? the thought, that one day,it is the thought that may be one day i got a women's arms wrapped around me and her legs wrapped around me, that i could wake up in the morning and she would still be there, smell her, no funky whore, i finally gave up on it" - SCent of a women, al pacino speaks it....
too much of stuffs i guess.... I feel like i have had few Beers, mind free, moving around like a flying kiss my lil sis gives me..... am gonna catch it now.... you guys also do catch up with something......
Note: people, dont take any of my advice and just go hug somebody, gals can try it on a guy, coz anyway guys will fall for it[am telling nothin in this space :-p], but guys, if you try it on a gal and get kicked, am not the peson to be met, might be a doctor at your own cost....:-) so i put a disclaimer here...;-)..... and also BE SAFE.... already 6 billion + and counting.... ;)
p.s. Iktara song was playing all the while when i was typing this, i dont know hindhi to understand it completely but liked it....;-) dont expect me to give the links, you go find it yourself, deserve it....:-p anyway it would be a pirated version..... i know what your telling, yest, but no,i will not do any confessions here, dont even imagine....:-p ;-)
1:25 am
Just completed 'WAKE UP SID', a hindhi* movie....:-) now dont try to test my hindhi* knowledge:-p, i do understand movies, i have that knowledge of Hindhi*.;-)
I wish there is more graphics in here too like yahoo chat, Googles sucks this part, might be someone who reads this can suggest that to someone in google.....
anyway that is not the reason am sitting here at this time to write something, so let me get into the matter,
but actually, i really dont have anything very specific thoughts to put into words asusual,;-)..... but just thought, i have to capture this mind set.... fresh, like it just rained, just got drenched in rain after tearing sun, beautiful sunset in the back drop of a ocean where u r sitting all alone, just u and the ocean..... :)
any emotion is not permanent, not a single one, it passes away, i know even this will pass away, but i wish i have this mind set all time, but who knows i might get bored of it too at times,:-p, so varitey is always good[now u understand why i always tell NO to marriage,;-)]....
Fun is good, but how worth it is, how well we deserve it is there, most imp thing is how well we handle it and share it with others, i do remember a moment in a life that i acted like a stupid, enjoyed the moment, without even considering others around me, the moment was, 2nd day of my interview to a job which i was not even interested, i got selected, knew it after 6 hrs of waiting after the interview, i jumped, danced, shouted, laughed, forgot my hunger, frustration of waiting, calls flew from my mobile to all,full happy, face was not stopping the curve,updations in orkut[that time facebook was far away from me].... but when i got grounded, back to earth, i knew how stupid i was, dint even think about people who really deserved it,i, a chemical engineer got a Software engineering job and a computer engineer failing in the same interview, what nonsense, and am celebrating infront of him/her,i would regret for that moment anytime in my life, i really dint mean to hurt anybody out there, but i had created a scene which would have hurt anyone, wish i have this mindset when i get any other success, ok i will not call this a success, let me tell it a breakthrough.... i will take this chance to tell them all a sorry, and will surely be angry for making me a software engg....;-):-p
anyway, that thought just crossed in and got its space, but, i wanted this about wake up sid, simple movie, no complex stuffs, actually similar stuff, that we have known for years, but people it is worth the watch, it is fun, expected twists, known story line, but still fresh. I liked it. would recommend it, provided you all have a lite heart like mine....;-)you know it must be good heart actually....:-p and more important thing, Konkana was the heroien,,,,what women she is.... I llike her from the momen t i first saw her in 'mr. n mrs. iyer'....
everyone always have expectations about their partner,Guzarish, i call her, actually recently changed name, thats looooooooooooooong story, no place for it here, might be sometime else, now, even i have expectations, about my dream guzarish, everyone wants the perfect,beautiful, smart, brave, brilliant, good, fun to be with, what not, everything packed in one....me too, so no blame game is this,.... so just some thinking stuff....;-) come on be serious,:-))....lol... but this is true, many gals i have seen, some i have tried out, only talking, dont get brilliant imaginations..... but nothing lasted morethan 24 hrs, which exceeds that surely end up in wonderful fight....;-) so here i want to just record one thing, the mind set of me after this movie, dont expect your love, dont make it, it is no dish that you can cook, let it happen, let it stay, let it go, let other love come, let it stay, let it go..... end of the day you will be person knowing to love everything around you, you cannot hate anyone, even if they can snatch of your thirupathi laddu, or snatch your system while reading blogs like mine, you will be smiling, see like this....':-)' thats good.....
I love you all.... and ofcourse you people love me too..... this love is enough, till you know the itches of your age, but for some wonderful passion in bed you do need next step of love, the compassion to be felt in a single hug; it is really simple to have a coitus even by a mastrubation, but the serenity of it, pleasure, warmth, [and more big words i dont know :-( ;-)], you can feel it only when you have love, when you are there and your partner is there, that is were you go to timelessness, not just fucking around, if you just keep fucking around, it is just like you come to a school, college, office, grave yard, a work, just a work.... so be clear with whom you take to bed and how.....
"is there anything else in this world? you know what keeps me going around all these years? the thought, that one day,it is the thought that may be one day i got a women's arms wrapped around me and her legs wrapped around me, that i could wake up in the morning and she would still be there, smell her, no funky whore, i finally gave up on it" - SCent of a women, al pacino speaks it....
too much of stuffs i guess.... I feel like i have had few Beers, mind free, moving around like a flying kiss my lil sis gives me..... am gonna catch it now.... you guys also do catch up with something......
Note: people, dont take any of my advice and just go hug somebody, gals can try it on a guy, coz anyway guys will fall for it[am telling nothin in this space :-p], but guys, if you try it on a gal and get kicked, am not the peson to be met, might be a doctor at your own cost....:-) so i put a disclaimer here...;-)..... and also BE SAFE.... already 6 billion + and counting.... ;)
p.s. Iktara song was playing all the while when i was typing this, i dont know hindhi to understand it completely but liked it....;-) dont expect me to give the links, you go find it yourself, deserve it....:-p anyway it would be a pirated version..... i know what your telling, yest, but no,i will not do any confessions here, dont even imagine....:-p ;-)
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