am smiling... smiling ... imagining... as i watch it...
what else can i tell?
no words....
adengappppppppppppppppaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....!!!
all izzzzzzzz welllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!
எல்லாம் நன்மைக்கே.... என்ன சொல்ற்றீங்க....? ;-)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
from morning .... move on , move , move on...
I wanted to write many things from morning.... but muthu, what are u doing with ur time? i dont know... somehow or the other... i have been good manager of time, effectively, but these days, yes i use it effectively, but at times, like today, i feel that i have done nothing but just sat wondering and did nothing.... what the hell?
i have been just watching the market gizmos, running up, down, fast, slow, my brain working out a plan to effectively use the opportunities, n mostly fail in large scale and success in small scale and learning in huge losses, and still thinking what next am i going to do....? sure muthu u r specimen as they tell...yes ofcourse, everyone are specimens, but muthu they don’t realize it.... so least bother i am, and keep doing things like this, now i have to move on, move on, move on, like fastrack ad....;-)
I have exactly ten mins in hand to write whatever i want to, i can go home n continue, but dont kno if still net has some prob, or ll i have this mood to write or, will i ever even think abt this blog, so let me write as much a i could in this space now itself, as someone told, there is no best time than now,
first thing, today when i was reading my favorite blog, i was thinking abt by grandfather, what will i be like when i am old, will i really be as patient as my grand father is, will i ever live till that age, what experiences will i learn in the meant time and atlast will i learn that there is nothing more than to know that whatever u do it is nothing and that is everything , as time passes what u did yesterday becomes clearer and u have firm grip over the decisions which could have been made yesterday and try use it in today's decision and wait for tomo result.... but it keeps moving on....
i have to write a comment for that post, may be tomo, when am in really in good reading mood...
i have booked tickets for AAYIRATHIL ORUVAN for saturday and sunday shows.... going... happily to chennai again this week with ram.....;-)
excited about the unreserved trip...;-)
thats is best way to travel for a traveller,
five more mins.... still i have to check for spelling mins also.... oh my muthu.... u r a hell...
then, then......then.... hmm...what else did i want to write...
I want to go to the book expo in Delhi, i am searching for a sponsor for my flight tickets.... it is starting this month end and extends till feb 7.... i got to know that there ll be ocean of books and it is the best expo in india.... will i make it.... hope if i get my sponsor well....;-)
after very long time, i am nearing bankruptcy, hope i dont touch it and escape, let me see, another 10 days to go and already i have a trip this weekend and also next trip am planning to next week to bengaluru....
this year i have not done one proper travel also, just as a trip, yeah it is just 20 days passeed an am feeling that i have not travelled for the year... how great..... keep it up muthu... :-)
I took some snaps after a very long time in my slr, should develop this role, it reall been more than 4 months since i completed one full roll, this present roll is running for past 4 months, from deepavali trip am talking snap in it, note: ly 36 frames per roll.... let me see the output
2 mins more....
so checked spellings in hurry, dnt mind it.... for nw,... tata bye bye c u....
i have been just watching the market gizmos, running up, down, fast, slow, my brain working out a plan to effectively use the opportunities, n mostly fail in large scale and success in small scale and learning in huge losses, and still thinking what next am i going to do....? sure muthu u r specimen as they tell...yes ofcourse, everyone are specimens, but muthu they don’t realize it.... so least bother i am, and keep doing things like this, now i have to move on, move on, move on, like fastrack ad....;-)
I have exactly ten mins in hand to write whatever i want to, i can go home n continue, but dont kno if still net has some prob, or ll i have this mood to write or, will i ever even think abt this blog, so let me write as much a i could in this space now itself, as someone told, there is no best time than now,
first thing, today when i was reading my favorite blog, i was thinking abt by grandfather, what will i be like when i am old, will i really be as patient as my grand father is, will i ever live till that age, what experiences will i learn in the meant time and atlast will i learn that there is nothing more than to know that whatever u do it is nothing and that is everything , as time passes what u did yesterday becomes clearer and u have firm grip over the decisions which could have been made yesterday and try use it in today's decision and wait for tomo result.... but it keeps moving on....
i have to write a comment for that post, may be tomo, when am in really in good reading mood...
i have booked tickets for AAYIRATHIL ORUVAN for saturday and sunday shows.... going... happily to chennai again this week with ram.....;-)
excited about the unreserved trip...;-)
thats is best way to travel for a traveller,
five more mins.... still i have to check for spelling mins also.... oh my muthu.... u r a hell...
then, then......then.... hmm...what else did i want to write...
I want to go to the book expo in Delhi, i am searching for a sponsor for my flight tickets.... it is starting this month end and extends till feb 7.... i got to know that there ll be ocean of books and it is the best expo in india.... will i make it.... hope if i get my sponsor well....;-)
after very long time, i am nearing bankruptcy, hope i dont touch it and escape, let me see, another 10 days to go and already i have a trip this weekend and also next trip am planning to next week to bengaluru....
this year i have not done one proper travel also, just as a trip, yeah it is just 20 days passeed an am feeling that i have not travelled for the year... how great..... keep it up muthu... :-)
I took some snaps after a very long time in my slr, should develop this role, it reall been more than 4 months since i completed one full roll, this present roll is running for past 4 months, from deepavali trip am talking snap in it, note: ly 36 frames per roll.... let me see the output
2 mins more....
so checked spellings in hurry, dnt mind it.... for nw,... tata bye bye c u....
Monday, January 18, 2010
Bits!!!
first and foremost, AAYIRATHIL ORUVAN was mind blowing, worth the wait, dont listen to anyone's review or ideas, not even mine, see the movie decide it for yourself..... rest in the other blog...which ll take some time as i dont want to play a spoil sport....
next imp thing is, when i got into the train after this trip to chennai, i missed all the moments i had spent for the past few days, from the time machaan came to hyd, i wished wont this prolong for some more time, after a very long time i felt the emptiness, i really was what i was (except few unavoidable instances), oh...i wish i start enjoying my life with what i like doing, i just kept telling 'even this will pass'....
another reason for that dialogue was, my ticket dint get confirmed, so i had to come in unreserved, which is also happening after very longtime, trust me, when i tell it, i had one hell of time with my choices, that is when i again got to know that choices always create confusion in me and EOD my choice screws me like always... but one thing, even that will pass, i kept telling it, it was one of my longest night with me trying to sleep sitting on the upper berth and trying to find sleep, which was very deep that even i f wake up 10 mins, i felt like it was as if the whole night had passed off, theory of relativity... ;-)....
i was trying to see aayirathil oruvan atleast one more time, but dint get tickets... :-(
I cant stop thinking of that movie, today morning when i started off to office, on the way i cant stop my mind from asking where am i goin? y? what am i going to do there? will this end like this...?
one more thing, u see the result and do something, u r screwed.... atleast am... i do something enjoying... it helps me good... but my brain is trained otherwise :-(...
next imp thing is, when i got into the train after this trip to chennai, i missed all the moments i had spent for the past few days, from the time machaan came to hyd, i wished wont this prolong for some more time, after a very long time i felt the emptiness, i really was what i was (except few unavoidable instances), oh...i wish i start enjoying my life with what i like doing, i just kept telling 'even this will pass'....
another reason for that dialogue was, my ticket dint get confirmed, so i had to come in unreserved, which is also happening after very longtime, trust me, when i tell it, i had one hell of time with my choices, that is when i again got to know that choices always create confusion in me and EOD my choice screws me like always... but one thing, even that will pass, i kept telling it, it was one of my longest night with me trying to sleep sitting on the upper berth and trying to find sleep, which was very deep that even i f wake up 10 mins, i felt like it was as if the whole night had passed off, theory of relativity... ;-)....
i was trying to see aayirathil oruvan atleast one more time, but dint get tickets... :-(
I cant stop thinking of that movie, today morning when i started off to office, on the way i cant stop my mind from asking where am i goin? y? what am i going to do there? will this end like this...?
one more thing, u see the result and do something, u r screwed.... atleast am... i do something enjoying... it helps me good... but my brain is trained otherwise :-(...
Friday, January 15, 2010
I'm lovin' it!!!
It is not an ad for McDonald's... but to my life am telling this statement....
am not 100% sober... still have the knowledge of last night.... so this blog can be more revealing than, if i wud have written the same at someother time....
deepan had watched 'AAYIRATHIL ORUVAN' continously 3 times.... might be fourth time also... i dint speak to him, since i have not watched it yet.... will watch it tomo same time and then, there i will talk with him...;-) we ll hav long conv... might be ly silence ..... but cant wait for that....!!!
Pongal away from home was lik just another weekend off at home... watched SambhoShivaSambho.... slept 2 hrs in the evening and 3 hrs in the night....;-) shit these days am not sleeping properly... should get that rite on track....nothing infront of a best sleep(at this time)....
even if u dnt trust, trust me, that am telling, i am feeling that whatever happens is for good, all izz well, and u might miss what it was for until n unless u r in ur consiousness, until u witness it... am not witnessing it fully, but to an extent am able to succeed in my process of conciosuness.... shud improve....
the reader in me is become very slow one, not reading lot things, but do read some very useful things, the things i read are might not even be for a page but i think about it for days altogether... one thing i do often in this blogs even if dnt write is, i go see her blog, it is shining day by day, like a good wine's taste....;-) ... now am reading Che's 'Motorcycle diaries'....(very slow pace...)
I have this one thing that, if i wud lik to do what i want to do, which i must be doing but not, then i cant be like what others or atleast my parents want me to be, can i stop worrying for them and keep going, like Vivekanadar(when me and karthik were discussing abt this, i told that vivekanadar shud nt have done like that, but it was some 4 years ago)? now after four years of knowledge from this so called meaning ful life, am convinced to an extent that if i dont risk it nw am not going to do it anytime in mylife like this atleast...but ma dad n mom, i dnt want to leave them just like that, but that ll make my link with materialistic world keep extending....already such things are ly following me...when i was reading her blog, i wanted to just walk out office just like that, pack my bag go and start what i wanted to do...but y am i not doing it, i hav not many things like this due to fear, fear of losing a comfartable life, putting others in stake atleast my parents, what if i fail and become a failure kind of stuffs.... but really does failure matter to me after all these failures i have seen... shud i fear for this world where if i grow my beard am considered to be indecent, barbarian, villager.... is a barbarian low for them, is a villager low to them? then am sure am not going to fear them, and am already not fearing them, but the education and things they have taught me makes me fear my duties towards my parents...the fear is ultimately rooting to failure, what if a fail, what ll happen to me then, what ll happen to my life then, what if it is ruined, what if i become a completed failure, what ll i do to my parents... shit, i shud stop this thinkin r am sure i ll fail doing nothing....am forcing and focusing all my energy towards uproot this fear once for all and after which ly i can take my steps steadily facing this world... somepeople get easy gate pass for this, am not that lucky and that is y am happy abt myself, if am getting easy breakthtough am not cannot luv it as i wud luv after all this struggle... let my pace be steady and strong....it is hard to remove 21 years of life in 2 years, but am putting all that i can(really???!!) to push it off...
am good at talking nonsense i guess... people keep laughing at my face for this, they always tell that i keep telling the same old shit things and do nothing...might be that also one small reason that i am going slow, i dnt want to pove them anything, am doing all for me and let me do it my, this bak bak nonsense's background ly i can realise to full extent, for others it is just a waste of talk by a stupid....
am happy being that ....
leave me now....
am lovin it.....;-)
am not 100% sober... still have the knowledge of last night.... so this blog can be more revealing than, if i wud have written the same at someother time....
deepan had watched 'AAYIRATHIL ORUVAN' continously 3 times.... might be fourth time also... i dint speak to him, since i have not watched it yet.... will watch it tomo same time and then, there i will talk with him...;-) we ll hav long conv... might be ly silence ..... but cant wait for that....!!!
Pongal away from home was lik just another weekend off at home... watched SambhoShivaSambho.... slept 2 hrs in the evening and 3 hrs in the night....;-) shit these days am not sleeping properly... should get that rite on track....nothing infront of a best sleep(at this time)....
even if u dnt trust, trust me, that am telling, i am feeling that whatever happens is for good, all izz well, and u might miss what it was for until n unless u r in ur consiousness, until u witness it... am not witnessing it fully, but to an extent am able to succeed in my process of conciosuness.... shud improve....
the reader in me is become very slow one, not reading lot things, but do read some very useful things, the things i read are might not even be for a page but i think about it for days altogether... one thing i do often in this blogs even if dnt write is, i go see her blog, it is shining day by day, like a good wine's taste....;-) ... now am reading Che's 'Motorcycle diaries'....(very slow pace...)
I have this one thing that, if i wud lik to do what i want to do, which i must be doing but not, then i cant be like what others or atleast my parents want me to be, can i stop worrying for them and keep going, like Vivekanadar(when me and karthik were discussing abt this, i told that vivekanadar shud nt have done like that, but it was some 4 years ago)? now after four years of knowledge from this so called meaning ful life, am convinced to an extent that if i dont risk it nw am not going to do it anytime in mylife like this atleast...but ma dad n mom, i dnt want to leave them just like that, but that ll make my link with materialistic world keep extending....already such things are ly following me...when i was reading her blog, i wanted to just walk out office just like that, pack my bag go and start what i wanted to do...but y am i not doing it, i hav not many things like this due to fear, fear of losing a comfartable life, putting others in stake atleast my parents, what if i fail and become a failure kind of stuffs.... but really does failure matter to me after all these failures i have seen... shud i fear for this world where if i grow my beard am considered to be indecent, barbarian, villager.... is a barbarian low for them, is a villager low to them? then am sure am not going to fear them, and am already not fearing them, but the education and things they have taught me makes me fear my duties towards my parents...the fear is ultimately rooting to failure, what if a fail, what ll happen to me then, what ll happen to my life then, what if it is ruined, what if i become a completed failure, what ll i do to my parents... shit, i shud stop this thinkin r am sure i ll fail doing nothing....am forcing and focusing all my energy towards uproot this fear once for all and after which ly i can take my steps steadily facing this world... somepeople get easy gate pass for this, am not that lucky and that is y am happy abt myself, if am getting easy breakthtough am not cannot luv it as i wud luv after all this struggle... let my pace be steady and strong....it is hard to remove 21 years of life in 2 years, but am putting all that i can(really???!!) to push it off...
am good at talking nonsense i guess... people keep laughing at my face for this, they always tell that i keep telling the same old shit things and do nothing...might be that also one small reason that i am going slow, i dnt want to pove them anything, am doing all for me and let me do it my, this bak bak nonsense's background ly i can realise to full extent, for others it is just a waste of talk by a stupid....
am happy being that ....
leave me now....
am lovin it.....;-)
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Write it!!!
i chose this title as i wanted to write atleast one blog this week and post it, which is very important, there is load of drafts waiting to be finished and i don think I am going to finish them in near future...
some or the other how i swallow mytime just doing something or the other and EOD my blog will got to drafts safely...this series should end from this blog, i want to.
first, this boghi, pongal, maatu pongal everything I am going to be far off from my parents and family for the first time in my life...shit...i curse myself for that...:-(... what am i doing sitting here? omg... hope all these are for something good and useful.
second, i had applied for teach for india program. i had applied last year but was not able to join as i was not able to resign my job. this time, had made some alternate plans, so that i can join and do something useful of myself to myself.already i have got crossed with the TFI team for their process and ideologies, hope i enter there to learn more reasons to get crossed and finally make myself and the prog to better shape.... ma sis's plan of play school is falling into shape, but dnt kno how far and productive it is going to be.... tight run though, still can make it if the try was good enough....
then, I dint get a 'fuck off' this time for commenting on that blog...:-) 'but becareful not to interrupt anywhere or u have to get another F word muthu'
then, am going to chennai this weekend for my friend's sis marriage, but basically it is for a small get together with my coll mates... hope fun is not spoiled by our matured exp in the passed years.... imp iternary in that plan is, am watching 'aayirathil oruvan', much awaited by me and also others that too with all my friends... sad part is already 2 fellows dropped out of the plan.... no matter what, am gonna enjoy the trip to equal my no show at home for pongal worries...
i guess, this blog is telling literal personal shit this time, y did i write in detail everything here? i guess am out of my mind or became indifferent, dont know, the progress can be seen ly as the days passes...
i thought i will be able to blog often if i have internet at home, but not so, even after getting it, am not doing it, 10001 reasons and simply can be put into laziness and mind's flow....without spark there nothing to write on this place...
i have written the second review for the movie 'The time that remains, in that blog , but dint post it yet because am still reading the palestine-iseral issue, before writing the blog. but i guess i ll just post it without reading them completely.
then....hmmm... then... mind is gone blank... nothing for now... later ll continue...
some or the other how i swallow mytime just doing something or the other and EOD my blog will got to drafts safely...this series should end from this blog, i want to.
first, this boghi, pongal, maatu pongal everything I am going to be far off from my parents and family for the first time in my life...shit...i curse myself for that...:-(... what am i doing sitting here? omg... hope all these are for something good and useful.
second, i had applied for teach for india program. i had applied last year but was not able to join as i was not able to resign my job. this time, had made some alternate plans, so that i can join and do something useful of myself to myself.already i have got crossed with the TFI team for their process and ideologies, hope i enter there to learn more reasons to get crossed and finally make myself and the prog to better shape.... ma sis's plan of play school is falling into shape, but dnt kno how far and productive it is going to be.... tight run though, still can make it if the try was good enough....
then, I dint get a 'fuck off' this time for commenting on that blog...:-) 'but becareful not to interrupt anywhere or u have to get another F word muthu'
then, am going to chennai this weekend for my friend's sis marriage, but basically it is for a small get together with my coll mates... hope fun is not spoiled by our matured exp in the passed years.... imp iternary in that plan is, am watching 'aayirathil oruvan', much awaited by me and also others that too with all my friends... sad part is already 2 fellows dropped out of the plan.... no matter what, am gonna enjoy the trip to equal my no show at home for pongal worries...
i guess, this blog is telling literal personal shit this time, y did i write in detail everything here? i guess am out of my mind or became indifferent, dont know, the progress can be seen ly as the days passes...
i thought i will be able to blog often if i have internet at home, but not so, even after getting it, am not doing it, 10001 reasons and simply can be put into laziness and mind's flow....without spark there nothing to write on this place...
i have written the second review for the movie 'The time that remains, in that blog , but dint post it yet because am still reading the palestine-iseral issue, before writing the blog. but i guess i ll just post it without reading them completely.
then....hmmm... then... mind is gone blank... nothing for now... later ll continue...
Friday, January 1, 2010
Wish you all BAD and worst new year...
does this make a diference anyways? who knows?
I might hurt senitiments of many by wishing this way... but this is what is going to be our future.... a tough fight for each and everything... if we are not getting to realize where we are heading upto and not stop just with realization but make a plan and put into action, then we can happily wish everyone a happy new year...
in the name of invention, mordernisation, globalisation, and all other 'sation's we are pushing the world into a pit....already we are in a place where we will never be able to make a return, irreversible changes have already taken place, if we want atleast to stop more such changes we must think and do like we are to do... but i know that except for some most of us will not even have time to worry about anything like this.... why should we worry until and unless we have food to eat, place shelter, and fun to be with....? why? give one reason? that will be the question... but if you are going to be kind enough for this human race and all other living things in this world, then we must know the difference between necessity and luxury, just for the luxury of one person to go in a 25 crore worth car a day, how many people are starving to death without even one meal a day?
i am not speaking communism or capitalism. I am speaking human values. i am not telling everyone to give upr everything and you also starve, but make enough room for others to live on this earth, dont put your greed and selfish pleasure of earning for your next ten genration at the expense of the current generation...
it is not just a single person to realize, but, everyone must do, then only there will be a difference, we must be expecting a leader to come lead us, we ourselves are leaders and we must lead ourseleves. change with small small things.... try to save electricity, avoid using plastic, dont loot others, dont create beggars, create jobs for others, dont do jobs that u dont llike, do what u like to do , love all and hate noone, like this think it of yourself to do the difference....
this is just a spark i am trying to create, it is all up to you people to make into a forest fire.... ;-)
note: i am not here to show your mistakes, but this is also telling all the things even i do, so this is mainly for me to realize, and also if people like you can realize and start a small change, it would be great....
als urs
muthu
I might hurt senitiments of many by wishing this way... but this is what is going to be our future.... a tough fight for each and everything... if we are not getting to realize where we are heading upto and not stop just with realization but make a plan and put into action, then we can happily wish everyone a happy new year...
in the name of invention, mordernisation, globalisation, and all other 'sation's we are pushing the world into a pit....already we are in a place where we will never be able to make a return, irreversible changes have already taken place, if we want atleast to stop more such changes we must think and do like we are to do... but i know that except for some most of us will not even have time to worry about anything like this.... why should we worry until and unless we have food to eat, place shelter, and fun to be with....? why? give one reason? that will be the question... but if you are going to be kind enough for this human race and all other living things in this world, then we must know the difference between necessity and luxury, just for the luxury of one person to go in a 25 crore worth car a day, how many people are starving to death without even one meal a day?
i am not speaking communism or capitalism. I am speaking human values. i am not telling everyone to give upr everything and you also starve, but make enough room for others to live on this earth, dont put your greed and selfish pleasure of earning for your next ten genration at the expense of the current generation...
it is not just a single person to realize, but, everyone must do, then only there will be a difference, we must be expecting a leader to come lead us, we ourselves are leaders and we must lead ourseleves. change with small small things.... try to save electricity, avoid using plastic, dont loot others, dont create beggars, create jobs for others, dont do jobs that u dont llike, do what u like to do , love all and hate noone, like this think it of yourself to do the difference....
this is just a spark i am trying to create, it is all up to you people to make into a forest fire.... ;-)
note: i am not here to show your mistakes, but this is also telling all the things even i do, so this is mainly for me to realize, and also if people like you can realize and start a small change, it would be great....
als urs
muthu
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