Thursday, December 11, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
It is tooooooo cold out here...
You know what the time is it here? You cant even imagine that I woke up so early and am in the office at this early hours of the day. It is 05:36 AM and am sitting at my desk all alone, without noone around me, no lights, no A/c or Fan to ventilate me on the 9 th floor of my office.
Still sun is fighting to show his face, the guards are sleeping outside, i am sitting here just for the sake someone has accepted that someone will be here to support them(!), who are far across latitudes and are trying to find some drug for some miserable disease which wouldnt have existed if humans were not so Ambitious, thanks for all the scientists and people who try to make people leaders, achievers, idols what not even they make them miserable without their knowledge- how great they are. Even am the reason for it, should not blame others alone, It was my greed that i took up this wonderful job(for others,ofcourse) and now whom should i blame except me for it. neverthless, things are still to unwrap, let me do atleast them as i need them actually to be.
How many would really be standing on their balcony or through their windows be waiting for the sun to raise? how many have time to do so? If I tell them to do so they will tell that something is really wrong with me and i must be meeting a Pshychiatrist. Great. huh! but that is how it is.
I think about these things many a times but I know nothing can be done on forcing, people must have their space of air where they will find the truths now or later or may not, i can do nothing but just try to give them their space and tell they have something called 'Space' around them. Then, they are on thier own...
I thank one and all here in this world. I enjoyed the bike ride at this early hour, cold wind striking at my face and cracking it, oops! i forgot my jacket, my arms were also preyed, but no matter what i enjoyed it, the roads were bumpy, the roads were free, it is real pleasure drive in a road where there is none to overtake you, none for you to overtake, no traffics, no need to shout at anyone, people in metros and cities must surely know what this pleasrue means, that too espesically the unlucky 4/6/8/10/... wheelers. after coming throught this cold wind, my office feels like an oven with all the co2 left by us last working day and the closed construction, oh my god! let me enjoy this to with whatever i can...
Ok fine. It is time for me to work.
sorry. i wrote this 3 days back and forgot to post. anyways who cares....right?
Still sun is fighting to show his face, the guards are sleeping outside, i am sitting here just for the sake someone has accepted that someone will be here to support them(!), who are far across latitudes and are trying to find some drug for some miserable disease which wouldnt have existed if humans were not so Ambitious, thanks for all the scientists and people who try to make people leaders, achievers, idols what not even they make them miserable without their knowledge- how great they are. Even am the reason for it, should not blame others alone, It was my greed that i took up this wonderful job(for others,ofcourse) and now whom should i blame except me for it. neverthless, things are still to unwrap, let me do atleast them as i need them actually to be.
How many would really be standing on their balcony or through their windows be waiting for the sun to raise? how many have time to do so? If I tell them to do so they will tell that something is really wrong with me and i must be meeting a Pshychiatrist. Great. huh! but that is how it is.
I think about these things many a times but I know nothing can be done on forcing, people must have their space of air where they will find the truths now or later or may not, i can do nothing but just try to give them their space and tell they have something called 'Space' around them. Then, they are on thier own...
I thank one and all here in this world. I enjoyed the bike ride at this early hour, cold wind striking at my face and cracking it, oops! i forgot my jacket, my arms were also preyed, but no matter what i enjoyed it, the roads were bumpy, the roads were free, it is real pleasure drive in a road where there is none to overtake you, none for you to overtake, no traffics, no need to shout at anyone, people in metros and cities must surely know what this pleasrue means, that too espesically the unlucky 4/6/8/10/... wheelers. after coming throught this cold wind, my office feels like an oven with all the co2 left by us last working day and the closed construction, oh my god! let me enjoy this to with whatever i can...
Ok fine. It is time for me to work.
sorry. i wrote this 3 days back and forgot to post. anyways who cares....right?
Live Here Now
Live here now!
Living in hope is living in the future,
which is really postponing life.
It is not a way of living, but a way of suicide.
There is no need for any hope
and there is no need to feel helpless.
Live here now.
I am not for hope;
I am not for Hoplesness.
I am against all extremism.
Excerpted from Ancien Music in the Pines, Osho.
Living in hope is living in the future,
which is really postponing life.
It is not a way of living, but a way of suicide.
There is no need for any hope
and there is no need to feel helpless.
Live here now.
I am not for hope;
I am not for Hoplesness.
I am against all extremism.
Excerpted from Ancien Music in the Pines, Osho.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Anti- Climax
Today was the day for my Ant- climax (as expected). Even though it was expected, the after effect is not what I expected. It is completely different. I am not normal at the same time nothing is abnormal in me, it is like I am in a very neutral zone. Nothing is affecting me today, not even the Anti-climax (can u all believe it? but still I keep thinking about the way I lost this). I know I will lose, that to very badly and mercilessly but I never expected it will transform many things in me. I feel something very serene in me.
Things are happening today like I am not a part of them but still I am there. The thing which I must have owned, adored, have felt proud for achieving it is now restricted for me even to think. I am forced to stay out of the reach of it. The worst thing of life happens just like that, without even showing a trace of the scar like a heart attack but effect is lethal. One very good part of me is gone as a prey for it now.
There are things which you can never be the same again. My wonderful part is lost in this Ant- climax, I am witnessing it. I am telling these things in my life not to make your small peaceful time sad thinking about me but just to tell you people that failure is a very integral part of our life but all we need to do is enjoy that also like a victory. Love it. feel it. Nothing will happen to you…
I have been keeping this blog a very serious and sad stuff I think. Don’t worry soon it will be colourful with my JOSH. All I need is sometime to recover or rebuilt or reload another personality or character suitable and at the same time kind for everyone…
Until then it is
Als urs
muthukumar p r
Things are happening today like I am not a part of them but still I am there. The thing which I must have owned, adored, have felt proud for achieving it is now restricted for me even to think. I am forced to stay out of the reach of it. The worst thing of life happens just like that, without even showing a trace of the scar like a heart attack but effect is lethal. One very good part of me is gone as a prey for it now.
There are things which you can never be the same again. My wonderful part is lost in this Ant- climax, I am witnessing it. I am telling these things in my life not to make your small peaceful time sad thinking about me but just to tell you people that failure is a very integral part of our life but all we need to do is enjoy that also like a victory. Love it. feel it. Nothing will happen to you…
I have been keeping this blog a very serious and sad stuff I think. Don’t worry soon it will be colourful with my JOSH. All I need is sometime to recover or rebuilt or reload another personality or character suitable and at the same time kind for everyone…
Until then it is
Als urs
muthukumar p r
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
another Climax
After a long time today I thought I will contribute something to this space. It is not that I dint have time or something like that but it is just that I dint know what to write and dint want to write anything very personal in this space and show you all my weakness, but the funniest part is even now I have nothing to write but am writing about me myself because I was feeling that it is ages since I did something creative. Ya! It is more than three weeks since I did something creative or at least did something which makes me happy.
It is all because of the impossible thing for which I have hopes and dreams. Now as it is getting close to climax I am waiting eagerly for it, may be anti climax also (actually I know it is mostly, but still this is my die hard confidence which is not allowing me to accept it until the reality will be there to strike me to the ground and may be bury me also). But who cares? This feel is good for me now, so I am not going to leave this.
Have you people be in a situation where you will have nothing in your hands to do in a situation but still what you think will be the right and only you will be the only person for it and the whole world will be against you and also you will know that you are going to be buried till the core of earth, but still have hopes for your instincts? Now am in that situation only, and as each day ends I know I am coming one step closer to the climax (opposite of anti climax pleaseeeeeeeee). So only this stupid brain is not working, it is always thinking and dreaming, I am nearly dreaming for hours continuously and then finally confuse the whole setup and then again start from scratch, isn’t that funny? But that is how things are with me at present.
When I was talking about the same topic with one of my friend, she only told that I must write what all I think so that it will be really useful for more. So I will tell some thought processes what all I had when I am in this situation….
“….confidence is not having hopes on things which you know will happen or which has the brightest chance of happening but it is just the opposite, you must have hopes when you know that the chance of winning is next to impossible, coz at that time you will know what it means to win or lose…”
“….you may be right or even utterly wrong, hear what everyone are telling and make sure you are satisfied with what you are doing, then no one can affect your decision or you will not feel bad when others tell it is wrong…”
“….laugh at yourself when you want to cry then you will know how fool you are to do things...”
“…you are not in any way less to not get things in this world so wish to do whatever you want to do…”
“…when you are in full love whatever you will do will surely turn fruitful, there will be nothing bad in your way of living and thinking…”
“…everyone lives…what are you doing to live like you…”
….. I think this is getting too much of philosophy and stuffs so let me stop here. Now am ok. Will get back to you when I see the climax.
It is all because of the impossible thing for which I have hopes and dreams. Now as it is getting close to climax I am waiting eagerly for it, may be anti climax also (actually I know it is mostly, but still this is my die hard confidence which is not allowing me to accept it until the reality will be there to strike me to the ground and may be bury me also). But who cares? This feel is good for me now, so I am not going to leave this.
Have you people be in a situation where you will have nothing in your hands to do in a situation but still what you think will be the right and only you will be the only person for it and the whole world will be against you and also you will know that you are going to be buried till the core of earth, but still have hopes for your instincts? Now am in that situation only, and as each day ends I know I am coming one step closer to the climax (opposite of anti climax pleaseeeeeeeee). So only this stupid brain is not working, it is always thinking and dreaming, I am nearly dreaming for hours continuously and then finally confuse the whole setup and then again start from scratch, isn’t that funny? But that is how things are with me at present.
When I was talking about the same topic with one of my friend, she only told that I must write what all I think so that it will be really useful for more. So I will tell some thought processes what all I had when I am in this situation….
“….confidence is not having hopes on things which you know will happen or which has the brightest chance of happening but it is just the opposite, you must have hopes when you know that the chance of winning is next to impossible, coz at that time you will know what it means to win or lose…”
“….you may be right or even utterly wrong, hear what everyone are telling and make sure you are satisfied with what you are doing, then no one can affect your decision or you will not feel bad when others tell it is wrong…”
“….laugh at yourself when you want to cry then you will know how fool you are to do things...”
“…you are not in any way less to not get things in this world so wish to do whatever you want to do…”
“…when you are in full love whatever you will do will surely turn fruitful, there will be nothing bad in your way of living and thinking…”
“…everyone lives…what are you doing to live like you…”
….. I think this is getting too much of philosophy and stuffs so let me stop here. Now am ok. Will get back to you when I see the climax.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Nilam…Land….
(Caution:too lengthy, am sorry for it. but should be interesting. Read it)
What comes to your mind when you hear these words? The punishment you got when you were child for eating mud, a part of it? Throwing stones at Mangoes hanging in the neighbor’s tree? Digging the garden at school as a part of extra-curricular activity to plant the Neem tree? The war, that nearly all the nations are indulged over the issue of boundaries from the time he knew the value of power?
Anything may come to your mind… it may be good or bad… sweet or sour... it is LAND that you know. Here I am telling what I think about this vast thing which is accommodating all of us.
70% of the visible earth is Land practically, but whole 100% is land theoretically. It is actually a small piece of rock fell into Sun’s orbit and is now accommodating whatever it is having now. I am not going to bore you people with the history of it, sure don’t worry, that was just an intro for it, atleast it is worth this much.
Land has been the base for everything. But now what are we all doing? How many people really respect the land and tell it is universally common and no one can own it? Everyone wants a piece of her like a dog waiting for its meat. People think they are great to own a tiny piece of land and construct or use it for anything that they think is apt for it. I don’t tell that we need not own any piece of land but am asking is that more great than feeding someone esp. the malnutrition child you can easily find in African countries and we have such children’s in our own nation.
This is not to tell that ‘don’t have a house’. Have it only for your need. What is the fun in possessing a house for 21 stories or a house of 50,000 Sq.ft.? Even though this world will think it as wonder and the architects can put in all their creativity, is it worth that much pain when there are people without even a proper roof over their head to escape the sun and rain?
People think. There is Himalayan difference between need and luxury. When everyone’s need is done then we can seek luxury, but when people struggle to survive only how can we seek it? Am not telling you all to remove all your brands and wear simple attire and sell of your things and help them out right away (but that is what I mean here. if someone is ready to that I will really appreciate it and salute it. Even am not doing that. Which makes me feel like a @#@$%), but you can do simple things to help people out.
And one more thing on the same issue, what is the present market of real estate? People living in city must really know the meaning of it exactly. There are crorepathi farmers in Hyderabad just because of one reason that they had lands in the mountains of Banjara hills, Jublee hills, Gachibowli where only bushes and rocks grow, this is true. But just because of the real estate push, it is all happening. Now what is the problem for me if the real estate is booming? Actually the real estate is not booming it is grown artificially by people who are getting crazy about money and power and whatnot. These people are sick, sick to the core, they are the useless thing (but not completely, see they are helpful for me to write a blog) on the face of earth.
I am not here to complain on things. Am telling this to make a small difference or initiate a bigger change by my small try. People….. people…. People….. think….. you are all here to make difference, make it.
What comes to your mind when you hear these words? The punishment you got when you were child for eating mud, a part of it? Throwing stones at Mangoes hanging in the neighbor’s tree? Digging the garden at school as a part of extra-curricular activity to plant the Neem tree? The war, that nearly all the nations are indulged over the issue of boundaries from the time he knew the value of power?
Anything may come to your mind… it may be good or bad… sweet or sour... it is LAND that you know. Here I am telling what I think about this vast thing which is accommodating all of us.
70% of the visible earth is Land practically, but whole 100% is land theoretically. It is actually a small piece of rock fell into Sun’s orbit and is now accommodating whatever it is having now. I am not going to bore you people with the history of it, sure don’t worry, that was just an intro for it, atleast it is worth this much.
Land has been the base for everything. But now what are we all doing? How many people really respect the land and tell it is universally common and no one can own it? Everyone wants a piece of her like a dog waiting for its meat. People think they are great to own a tiny piece of land and construct or use it for anything that they think is apt for it. I don’t tell that we need not own any piece of land but am asking is that more great than feeding someone esp. the malnutrition child you can easily find in African countries and we have such children’s in our own nation.
This is not to tell that ‘don’t have a house’. Have it only for your need. What is the fun in possessing a house for 21 stories or a house of 50,000 Sq.ft.? Even though this world will think it as wonder and the architects can put in all their creativity, is it worth that much pain when there are people without even a proper roof over their head to escape the sun and rain?
People think. There is Himalayan difference between need and luxury. When everyone’s need is done then we can seek luxury, but when people struggle to survive only how can we seek it? Am not telling you all to remove all your brands and wear simple attire and sell of your things and help them out right away (but that is what I mean here. if someone is ready to that I will really appreciate it and salute it. Even am not doing that. Which makes me feel like a @#@$%), but you can do simple things to help people out.
And one more thing on the same issue, what is the present market of real estate? People living in city must really know the meaning of it exactly. There are crorepathi farmers in Hyderabad just because of one reason that they had lands in the mountains of Banjara hills, Jublee hills, Gachibowli where only bushes and rocks grow, this is true. But just because of the real estate push, it is all happening. Now what is the problem for me if the real estate is booming? Actually the real estate is not booming it is grown artificially by people who are getting crazy about money and power and whatnot. These people are sick, sick to the core, they are the useless thing (but not completely, see they are helpful for me to write a blog) on the face of earth.
I am not here to complain on things. Am telling this to make a small difference or initiate a bigger change by my small try. People….. people…. People….. think….. you are all here to make difference, make it.
You are responsible
You are responsible for whatsoever you are.
If you are miserable, you are responsible.
Don’t throw the responsibility on anybody else,
otherwise you will never be free of it.
Because how can you be free if I am responsible
for your misery?
Then unless I free you, you cannot be free;
it is in my hands.
And if it is in my hands,
it can be in somebody else’s hands.
Those whoe are with me have to understand,
howsoever hard and painful it is,
you and you alone are responsible
for everything that is happening to you,
has happened to you, will happen to you.
Once you accept all your responsibility in its totality,
you become mature.
You stop throwing tantrums and
you stop seeking messiahs.
Then there is no need for any Jesus to save you.
Nor can any Jesus save you-
he was exploiting your situation.
Excerpted from
From Unconsciousness to Consciousness, Osho
If you are miserable, you are responsible.
Don’t throw the responsibility on anybody else,
otherwise you will never be free of it.
Because how can you be free if I am responsible
for your misery?
Then unless I free you, you cannot be free;
it is in my hands.
And if it is in my hands,
it can be in somebody else’s hands.
Those whoe are with me have to understand,
howsoever hard and painful it is,
you and you alone are responsible
for everything that is happening to you,
has happened to you, will happen to you.
Once you accept all your responsibility in its totality,
you become mature.
You stop throwing tantrums and
you stop seeking messiahs.
Then there is no need for any Jesus to save you.
Nor can any Jesus save you-
he was exploiting your situation.
Excerpted from
From Unconsciousness to Consciousness, Osho
Monday, July 14, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
First blog.... so simple n sweet but interesting one to keep us going
This is my very first attempt to blog to this world, that too, with my own words and creativity. So let me be very simple and clear but of course tell something interesting and keep you curious about my next blogs....
Here it goes like this,
We are individuals with tones of variation with only one thing remaining common between us that is NATURE, other than that there is nothing common to all the individuals living in this world (when i tell everything i include all possible living things). According to Mikhail Naimy in his book "BOOK OF MIRDAD" (everyone try to find this book and read it. very useful one. will give you a lot of insight to this damn beautiful life we miss) we are living in this life like this because of all the things that was and is there in this world, it relates to chaos theory or butterfly effect as many people very well know it. All your action has a reaction Newton's third law; it is just that you have to keep your eyes wide open to see what is going on around you. It will be really exciting to know when we find that very small things make a hell of difference later....
Example... hmmm... Me. what other better example you can have? I have never ever thought that I would be blogging are thinking something about literature even in my weirdest dream. But the seed for this was thrown in me when I was just 7-8 years when my grandfather read stories from a local newspaper supplement book that comes every Friday. he created the interest of reading but even then i was reading only gossips and never had any idea of my writing are using my creativity to do things that will really make others read. But here I am after stages of improvement in this nearly 15 years of life i was gradually transformed from gossips to short stories to novels to philosophy to my own hand typing something creative to make others read. Isn’t that really interesting?
It is really great when you think about such small things making a huge difference. That small thing bought me close to many of the things which were not even in reach of my brain. Now it has introduced me too many great peoples like Mikhail Naimy, Osho, Robin Sharma, Vairamuthu, Paulo Coehlo, Jumpha Laghiri and many more. They have all given me abundance of courage and inputs with which i am here to write on my own....
Ok now you should have got good intro about me... HI to everyone....
Now time to blog usefully.....
My friend gave me worldometer website with which i found how fast everything is happening. i have given the address at the end of the blog. it is really a very interesting one. When you see it for one full day (I don’t mean literally. just keep it in your task bar and see it time to time when you are bored), you will find it very amazing. You will really know what a second means. many people would have told us about these statistics before, but when you see it in front of your eyes it will be just mind blowing that even you will get that time is running and you know we have not done anything worth full to our living... at least I felt it. Trust me...
So just try it and tell me what all you felt when this time bomb was ticking in front of your eyes...?
http://www.worldometers.info/
ps: everyone have to bare with my language. I am on the process of improving it. Should get better as time goes. Until that you have no other go but bare it.
Here it goes like this,
We are individuals with tones of variation with only one thing remaining common between us that is NATURE, other than that there is nothing common to all the individuals living in this world (when i tell everything i include all possible living things). According to Mikhail Naimy in his book "BOOK OF MIRDAD" (everyone try to find this book and read it. very useful one. will give you a lot of insight to this damn beautiful life we miss) we are living in this life like this because of all the things that was and is there in this world, it relates to chaos theory or butterfly effect as many people very well know it. All your action has a reaction Newton's third law; it is just that you have to keep your eyes wide open to see what is going on around you. It will be really exciting to know when we find that very small things make a hell of difference later....
Example... hmmm... Me. what other better example you can have? I have never ever thought that I would be blogging are thinking something about literature even in my weirdest dream. But the seed for this was thrown in me when I was just 7-8 years when my grandfather read stories from a local newspaper supplement book that comes every Friday. he created the interest of reading but even then i was reading only gossips and never had any idea of my writing are using my creativity to do things that will really make others read. But here I am after stages of improvement in this nearly 15 years of life i was gradually transformed from gossips to short stories to novels to philosophy to my own hand typing something creative to make others read. Isn’t that really interesting?
It is really great when you think about such small things making a huge difference. That small thing bought me close to many of the things which were not even in reach of my brain. Now it has introduced me too many great peoples like Mikhail Naimy, Osho, Robin Sharma, Vairamuthu, Paulo Coehlo, Jumpha Laghiri and many more. They have all given me abundance of courage and inputs with which i am here to write on my own....
Ok now you should have got good intro about me... HI to everyone....
Now time to blog usefully.....
My friend gave me worldometer website with which i found how fast everything is happening. i have given the address at the end of the blog. it is really a very interesting one. When you see it for one full day (I don’t mean literally. just keep it in your task bar and see it time to time when you are bored), you will find it very amazing. You will really know what a second means. many people would have told us about these statistics before, but when you see it in front of your eyes it will be just mind blowing that even you will get that time is running and you know we have not done anything worth full to our living... at least I felt it. Trust me...
So just try it and tell me what all you felt when this time bomb was ticking in front of your eyes...?
http://www.worldometers.info/
ps: everyone have to bare with my language. I am on the process of improving it. Should get better as time goes. Until that you have no other go but bare it.
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